I don't have access to the Gmail to my ea account

Me too 

Hey wa117gdawrx​ 

In cases like this, account recovery can’t be handled on the forum side, as it requires secure verification of ownership. The best next step is to contact EA Support directly so they can look into it with you:

https://help.ea.com/en/contact-us/ 

Even if you don’t have access to the original email, there are alternative ways to prove account ownership. These checks can be quite detailed, but that’s intentional; it helps ensure access is given back only to the rightful owner.

Once you reach out, try to provide as much information as you can, as that can help speed things up.