Packs

I’m living in a loop, where I open packs to get fodder, So I put the fodder in SBC’s to get another fodder, and it continues. Same story different day. But what really made me frustrated is me collecting packs, maybe in hope of better luck. After collecting more than 40 packs with highly chances of getting a super player like 4x86 & 5x85 packs, and waiting for the right moment like the thunderstruck event. I told myself this’s the chance of getting super players. I opened the packs and got gold players ? Same loop ? Not even one good thunderstruck card ? So I went to do the Icon 91 SBC and got fodder ? I was devastated, I had 1 million I was saving to get a good player, but then had enough of this game so I decided to open the 450k pack of base icon in hope of getting good card, it’s like I’m saying last chance. I opened it twice and got Sissi and Beckham? So I lost my money and fodder to get nothing ? 
why is it so hard to get just one good card ? 

I’m done, no more FC’s in my life .