Sigh

Ya’ll. I PROMISE you I will never get a 20 bomb badge in my life. I am content with that, it is just the reality of my skill level. But WHY does every single lobby I play in have several 20 bomb players?? I get it here and there I’ll go against those people but several players in every single match??? Most of my fights are just unbalanced and I feel like poop after playing this game, but I keep playing because I’m addicted and am chasing that super fun chaotic end game that every one loves that only happens like once every few months because am constantly getting killed by people way way way above my skill level. I am not asking to only go against people I can beat, but rather I want to go against people where it truly feels like the fight can go either way, aka balanced. That is more fun and actually challenging than getting absolutely obliterated every match. I know apex won’t do anything about this and I am purely just so frustrated with this game (and myself) and just wanted to vent somewhere. Please no hate I am sensitive (which is part of the problem lol).