Mary Kendall, A Ghost Story
@CravenLestat gifted me a ghost sim with a sad story. This is his story about how she became a ghost. The Mary Kendall Story :( Mary was a only child born to a poor family from the town o...
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Mary Kendall, A Ghost Story
Forgiveness
Bekka delivers her designs to the prospective clients. They enthusiastically approve them and the renovation dates are scheduled and the contracts are signed.
She arrives at the hospital feeling cheerful and excited and quickly jots those words down before going in for her appointment. She greets Dr. Pena and hands the journal to her. The winter painting on the wall helps to divert her mind while the doctor reads her notes. The painting makes her happy to look at, and she realizes it reminds her of the fun she and Jamie had the last two days. Perhaps they can sing together at the tavern this weekend. She smiles thinking about it.
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Dr. Pena finishes reading the entries and thanks Bekka for allowing her to read it. “When looking over your notes what stood out for you?
“I was surprised to see how many positive feelings I experienced rather than negative ones.”
“You would say it was a good day?”
“It was the best day I had in a long, long time.”
“The poem is very revealing. Tell me about it?”
"I wrote the poem after that wonderful day and did not really want it to end. I was sad he had to go and scared of those feelings, despite what a great day it was.
“You recognize the fear and yet are not shying away from him, but exploring the relationship.”
"Yes, I was attracted to him when I met him. He is gorgeous and sexy and has the most appealing smile I've ever seen. We have spent time together since that first disastrous meeting and it really has been a joy getting to know him. Jamie has a great sense of humor, kind of quirky like mine is. He's a really nice guy and I like him...a lot. He’s been very understanding about my need to go slow with our relationship. He has a natural instinct about people and emotions. I’ve noticed his sensitivity in dealing with others, not just me. He helped me diffuse the anger and hurt that had built up inside of me with his powers. I know I would be worse right now if Jamie had not helped me.”
“Is he an empath?”
“I think so. He says he is not occult, but he must be to draw emotions out of others into himself like he does. He just doesn't recognize it.
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Dr. Pena scribbles a few notes on her tablet observing Bekka as she talks. “Interesting about the young man. You have good insight and that is one of your strengths.”
Bekka shakes her head and groans. “I don’t feel I can trust my judgement after the mess I've made of my life these last two years.”
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The doctor looks thoughtful. "I can see where you would have issues trusting your judgement but you've learned a lot in the last two years. We see things differently depending on the time in our life. You wanted and needed something in your life when you met your former boyfriend that he seemed to meet. You need something different now. You do recognize that. Growth occurs with suffering as well as when we are happy. Life is not always easy, and you learned that early on with the death of your parents at an extremely vulnerable age. You have grown and changed and will see things in a new light in the future, but you need to learn to trust yourself again. We will work on that.” She makes more notes on her tablet.
“Something happened to make you start taking an interest in your life. Do you recall what it might have been?”
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Laughing, Bekka nods her head. “Oh yes! I can tell you exactly what it was. My Godmother! She came over to my house and had a ‘come to Fate’ talk with me. She expected me to show up at her harvest party to celebrate fall. I had given her excuses not to come. She wasn’t putting up with it anymore. She chewed me up one side and down the other. But did it in such a way I knew it was love and worry that brought her to me. She reminded me how much my parents loved me and how disappointed they would be with me hiding from life instead of living. Needless to say I showed up at the party and had a great time. Everyone seemed happy to see me and I was happy to see them as well. I started accepting invitations and actually invited a few friends over to my place for dinner during the holidays.”
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“Let's talk about your former boyfriend. We talked about what happened at the end of the relationship previously. Describe how it started, how you grew to become a couple.”
Bekka frowns, feeling tightness in her chest, suddenly not comfortable with the turn in the conversation. She shakes herself mentally. 'You are here to heal, no one said it would be easy. Get a grip girl.'
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“We met at a party and enjoyed each other's company right away. Josh was good-looking and interesting to talk with. He loved talking about his job, his expectations, what he wanted out of life. He had his whole life planned out. I think I admired that because I seemed to be just going through the motions with no real plan. We started seeing each other and generally did things with his friends and things he wanted to do. As we grew closer, I thought I was in love with him. Josh said he loved me. I wanted what my parents had and believed I would have it with him. I invited him to move in with me. He gradually became more controlling about what I could do, where I could go and who I could be with. He only approved of my Godparents but did not want me visiting them unless he was present too. He even critiqued my architecture jobs and made me pass up on some jobs that he felt were beneath me. I did things his way to make him happy. It was easier than arguing."
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"I came home one day to a house full of modern stark white furniture with chrome accents that had absolutely no soul. My once comforting home was lifeless and empty. I’m still not quite sure why I didn’t toss him out at that time. He thought I would enjoy the surprise of new furniture. I realized then he didn't really know me. I had been hiding the truth about us from myself. It wasn't much later when I discovered him at the park with the other woman. The first thing I did after breaking it off was have that furniture moved out and my things back in. He had put my things in storage. I honestly don’t know why I put up with it as long as I did. It's like I wasn't really me at the time.
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“What are you feeling right now?”
“Disappointment...sadness...anger...frustration.”
“Towards you or Josh?”
“Both but mostly towards me for allowing him to dominate me and not sending him packing."
"Can you forgive yourself as well as forgive him?"
Bekka is lost in thought for a few minutes as she thinks about her life the last two years and what she wants out of her future.
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“I have to because I can’t keep going like this. Jamie forgave me easily for my actions towards him and asked me to forgive myself for my outburst towards him. He didn't want my negative feelings and anger at myself affecting our relationship. That was when he told me he knew he wanted a closer relationship, but was willing to give me time. I didn't want those feelings affecting what was building between us. I forgave myself. This is hard, but I know I need to do it. It’s part of changing and letting go of that part of my life.”
“Yes, it is. It is necessary in order for you to take the next steps in your life.”
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Bekka closes her eyes and takes a deep breath. She opens her eyes and looks at the doctor, who inclines her head. She thinks of Jamie and draws strength from him even though he is not in the room with her. “I forgive myself for allowing Josh to control our relationship and me. I realize that even though I regret it happened I did learn from it and it won’t happen again. I forgive myself for living in fear and hiding from life. I want to be whole again."
"I forgive you, Josh. I forgive you for your controlling nature and your unfaithfulness in our relationship. I’m done with the hurt and the pain from our past. You won't control my life or my future any longer.”
Tears roll down her face as she feels her heart release the turmoil from the last two years. She grabs a tissue from the box kept on the doctor’s desk. She wipes her tears and takes several deep breaths to calm herself down.
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Across town, Jamie is pulled abruptly from his sleep. “Rebecca!” he calls out as he tries to calm his rapidly beating heart. He can feel she is stressed and upset. He doesn't sense danger though. He looks at the time and realizes she is probably at her doctor's appointment. He sits up and scratches his head as he tries to solve the puzzle in his mind as to why he is sensing her feelings when they are not in the same room together. He knows Rebecca is his soulmate but that has not even been discussed with her. He is amazed he can feel her strong emotions that far away. He pulls his phone out and sends a text knowing she won't get it while she is in with the doctor but needing to touch base with her anyway.
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Dr Pena walks around the desk to stand in front of Bekka and touches her shoulder briefly in a reassuring and calming manner. "You did that much sooner than I thought you would. You are a very determined young lady when you have your mind set on something, you do it." She smiles and Bekka wipes her eyes and gives her a tremulous smile back.
She watches as Bekka tries to calm herself down. “You know crying is a beneficial way to release tension and it makes us feel better. It is acceptable to cry.”
“I’ve never wanted to seem weak by crying in front of others or by myself.”
“Bekka, crying is not a sign of weakness. Holding in your emotions is not doing you any good. You can’t bottle them up inside you even if you have an empath handy to rid you of them. You have to learn to let them out yourself in a constructive way. We will work on that as well.” She smiles at Bekka to take the sting out of her words.
"I want you to continue with your journal, write your emotions and thoughts down as you have been doing. Our next appointment will be in two days. Are you ok with that?"
"Yes, that will be fine. I'm actually feeling empty at the moment. The darkness and heaviness in my soul seems to be gone. I feel drained but in a good way, not a bad way. Does any of this make sense?"
Dr. Pena spends a little more time talking with Bekka before letting her go home.
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Bekka turns her phone back on after leaving the doctor's office. She sees a text from Jamie asking if she is ok. 'Good question. I think I will be fine after I process all this.' She starts to send him a text back but decides she needs to hear his voice. She starts smiling as soon as she hears his cheerful voice. Jamie is all smiles hearing her voice and sensing her emotions are under control.
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Forgiveness
Bekka delivers her designs to the prospective clients. They enthusiastically approve them and the renovation dates are scheduled and the contracts are signed.
She arrives at the hospital feeling cheerful and excited and quickly jots those words down before going in for her appointment. She greets Dr. Pena and hands the journal to her. The winter painting on the wall helps to divert her mind while the doctor reads her notes. The painting makes her happy to look at, and she realizes it reminds her of the fun she and Jamie had the last two days. Perhaps they can sing together at the tavern this weekend. She smiles thinking about it.
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Dr. Pena finishes reading the entries and thanks Bekka for allowing her to read it. “When looking over your notes what stood out for you?
“I was surprised to see how many positive feelings I experienced rather than negative ones.”
“You would say it was a good day?”
“It was the best day I had in a long, long time.”
“The poem is very revealing. Tell me about it?”
"I wrote the poem after that wonderful day and did not really want it to end. I was sad he had to go and scared of those feelings, despite what a great day it was.
“You recognize the fear and yet are not shying away from him, but exploring the relationship.”
"Yes, I was attracted to him when I met him. He is gorgeous and sexy and has the most appealing smile I've ever seen. We have spent time together since that first disastrous meeting and it really has been a joy getting to know him. Jamie has a great sense of humor, kind of quirky like mine is. He's a really nice guy and I like him...a lot. He’s been very understanding about my need to go slow with our relationship. He has a natural instinct about people and emotions. I’ve noticed his sensitivity in dealing with others, not just me. He helped me diffuse the anger and hurt that had built up inside of me with his powers. I know I would be worse right now if Jamie had not helped me.”
“Is he an empath?”
“I think so. He says he is not occult, but he must be to draw emotions out of others into himself like he does. He just doesn't recognize it.
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Dr. Pena scribbles a few notes on her tablet observing Bekka as she talks. “Interesting about the young man. You have good insight and that is one of your strengths.”
Bekka shakes her head and groans. “I don’t feel I can trust my judgement after the mess I've made of my life these last two years.”
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The doctor looks thoughtful. "I can see where you would have issues trusting your judgement but you've learned a lot in the last two years. We see things differently depending on the time in our life. You wanted and needed something in your life when you met your former boyfriend that he seemed to meet. You need something different now. You do recognize that. Growth occurs with suffering as well as when we are happy. Life is not always easy, and you learned that early on with the death of your parents at an extremely vulnerable age. You have grown and changed and will see things in a new light in the future, but you need to learn to trust yourself again. We will work on that.” She makes more notes on her tablet.
“Something happened to make you start taking an interest in your life. Do you recall what it might have been?”
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Laughing, Bekka nods her head. “Oh yes! I can tell you exactly what it was. My Godmother! She came over to my house and had a ‘come to Fate’ talk with me. She expected me to show up at her harvest party to celebrate fall. I had given her excuses not to come. She wasn’t putting up with it anymore. She chewed me up one side and down the other. But did it in such a way I knew it was love and worry that brought her to me. She reminded me how much my parents loved me and how disappointed they would be with me hiding from life instead of living. Needless to say I showed up at the party and had a great time. Everyone seemed happy to see me and I was happy to see them as well. I started accepting invitations and actually invited a few friends over to my place for dinner during the holidays.”
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“Let's talk about your former boyfriend. We talked about what happened at the end of the relationship previously. Describe how it started, how you grew to become a couple.”
Bekka frowns, feeling tightness in her chest, suddenly not comfortable with the turn in the conversation. She shakes herself mentally. 'You are here to heal, no one said it would be easy. Get a grip girl.'
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“We met at a party and enjoyed each other's company right away. Josh was good-looking and interesting to talk with. He loved talking about his job, his expectations, what he wanted out of life. He had his whole life planned out. I think I admired that because I seemed to be just going through the motions with no real plan. We started seeing each other and generally did things with his friends and things he wanted to do. As we grew closer, I thought I was in love with him. Josh said he loved me. I wanted what my parents had and believed I would have it with him. I invited him to move in with me. He gradually became more controlling about what I could do, where I could go and who I could be with. He only approved of my Godparents but did not want me visiting them unless he was present too. He even critiqued my architecture jobs and made me pass up on some jobs that he felt were beneath me. I did things his way to make him happy. It was easier than arguing."
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"I came home one day to a house full of modern stark white furniture with chrome accents that had absolutely no soul. My once comforting home was lifeless and empty. I’m still not quite sure why I didn’t toss him out at that time. He thought I would enjoy the surprise of new furniture. I realized then he didn't really know me. I had been hiding the truth about us from myself. It wasn't much later when I discovered him at the park with the other woman. The first thing I did after breaking it off was have that furniture moved out and my things back in. He had put my things in storage. I honestly don’t know why I put up with it as long as I did. It's like I wasn't really me at the time.
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“What are you feeling right now?”
“Disappointment...sadness...anger...frustration.”
“Towards you or Josh?”
“Both but mostly towards me for allowing him to dominate me and not sending him packing."
"Can you forgive yourself as well as forgive him?"
Bekka is lost in thought for a few minutes as she thinks about her life the last two years and what she wants out of her future.
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“I have to because I can’t keep going like this. Jamie forgave me easily for my actions towards him and asked me to forgive myself for my outburst towards him. He didn't want my negative feelings and anger at myself affecting our relationship. That was when he told me he knew he wanted a closer relationship, but was willing to give me time. I didn't want those feelings affecting what was building between us. I forgave myself. This is hard, but I know I need to do it. It’s part of changing and letting go of that part of my life.”
“Yes, it is. It is necessary in order for you to take the next steps in your life.”
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https://youtu.be/rFC20P25mZ4
Bekka closes her eyes and takes a deep breath. She opens her eyes and looks at the doctor, who inclines her head. She thinks of Jamie and draws strength from him even though he is not in the room with her. “I forgive myself for allowing Josh to control our relationship and me. I realize that even though I regret it happened I did learn from it and it won’t happen again. I forgive myself for living in fear and hiding from life. I want to be whole again."
"I forgive you, Josh. I forgive you for your controlling nature and your unfaithfulness in our relationship. I’m done with the hurt and the pain from our past. You won't control my life or my future any longer.”
Tears roll down her face as she feels her heart release the turmoil from the last two years. She grabs a tissue from the box kept on the doctor’s desk. She wipes her tears and takes several deep breaths to calm herself down.
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Across town, Jamie is pulled abruptly from his sleep. “Rebecca!” he calls out as he tries to calm his rapidly beating heart. He can feel she is stressed and upset. He doesn't sense danger though. He looks at the time and realizes she is probably at her doctor's appointment. He sits up and scratches his head as he tries to solve the puzzle in his mind as to why he is sensing her feelings when they are not in the same room together. He knows Rebecca is his soulmate but that has not even been discussed with her. He is amazed he can feel her strong emotions that far away. He pulls his phone out and sends a text knowing she won't get it while she is in with the doctor but needing to touch base with her anyway.
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Dr Pena walks around the desk to stand in front of Bekka and touches her shoulder briefly in a reassuring and calming manner. "You did that much sooner than I thought you would. You are a very determined young lady when you have your mind set on something, you do it." She smiles and Bekka wipes her eyes and gives her a tremulous smile back.
She watches as Bekka tries to calm herself down. “You know crying is a beneficial way to release tension and it makes us feel better. It is acceptable to cry.”
“I’ve never wanted to seem weak by crying in front of others or by myself.”
“Bekka, crying is not a sign of weakness. Holding in your emotions is not doing you any good. You can’t bottle them up inside you even if you have an empath handy to rid you of them. You have to learn to let them out yourself in a constructive way. We will work on that as well.” She smiles at Bekka to take the sting out of her words.
"I want you to continue with your journal, write your emotions and thoughts down as you have been doing. Our next appointment will be in two days. Are you ok with that?"
"Yes, that will be fine. I'm actually feeling empty at the moment. The darkness and heaviness in my soul seems to be gone. I feel drained but in a good way, not a bad way. Does any of this make sense?"
Dr. Pena spends a little more time talking with Bekka before letting her go home.
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Bekka turns her phone back on after leaving the doctor's office. She sees a text from Jamie asking if she is ok. 'Good question. I think I will be fine after I process all this.' She starts to send him a text back but decides she needs to hear his voice. She starts smiling as soon as she hears his cheerful voice. Jamie is all smiles hearing her voice and sensing her emotions are under control.
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