The Red Winged Angels
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Chapter 4.24 - Tommy
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Tori Amos – Horses
I got me some horses to ride on, to ride on
They say that your demons can't go there
So I got me some horses to ride on, to ride on
As long as your army keeps perfectly still
And maybe I'll find me a sailor, a tailor
And maybe together we'll make mother well
So I got me some horses to ride on, to ride on
As long as your army keeps perfectly still
---
https://i.imgur.com/t2yZRNH.jpg
Ingun was having sweet dreams of baking the most delicious cakes and pastries...
https://i.imgur.com/D6MtScV.jpg
Aaron enjoyed his solitude staying awake at night.
After Aaron was done eating, Billy got up to eat the leftover salmon that Natalie had made yesterday for breakfast.
https://i.imgur.com/GKAaf7s.jpg
"Morning Billy" Aaron said, as he walked out to play in the treehouse. Billy didn't respond, he was perhaps a little grumpy this morning. The sun was already up, and soon it would be time for the kids to get ready for school, and Ingun for her first session alone with Dr. Sara...
https://i.imgur.com/jt6IXSw.jpg
https://i.imgur.com/9PfjPky.jpg
Rise and shine, Ingun..
https://i.imgur.com/W2AZ55F.jpg
Her sister, Natalie, woke up downstairs at more or less the same time. She had to remember to take her medication, as usual.
https://i.imgur.com/FcQyYDY.jpg
The first thought on Inguns mind was to buy a new and more expensive oven. She wasn't to happy about the one that Natalie owned. "I want one that is worth atleast 1000 simeoleons!" she thought.
https://i.imgur.com/CzYmZxv.jpg
Natalie called the repair man to fix the broken tv.
https://i.imgur.com/H1Z9uJ7.jpg
https://i.imgur.com/bSGmVZ2.jpg
The kids were on their way to school.
https://i.imgur.com/vceHVra.jpg
Natalie gave Ingun a hug, and Ingun felt protected and watched after. "Time to go to the doctors office, sis" Natalie said.
Ingun: O..ok, I just hope we won't meet any c-criminals on the way...
https://i.imgur.com/NmHnbvT.jpg
Natalie: Relax, Ingun! Its broad daylight! You know criminals usually operate in the dark.. and even if one tried something, I would kick his ass! Come now!
https://i.imgur.com/FIGyG2O.jpg
Ingun wasn't all that convinced. She had a little nervous breakdown, so Natalie had to call on her a few times before she would leave the bathroom.
https://i.imgur.com/TbhdAE3.jpg
https://i.imgur.com/mIj2DCz.jpg
"Come along now, Ingun! I'm watching over you!" Natalie called for her again as she entered the hallway at the hospital.
https://i.imgur.com/deJzYdX.jpg
Saras makeshift office is just up that staircase. "You go up there now, Ingun. I'll be in the waiting room watching a movie or something until you are done. Sara is very good and friendly, there is nothing to worry about!" Natalie said reassuringly.
https://i.imgur.com/WvStMFK.jpg
"Good morning, Ingun! Nice to see you! Please, have a seat!" Sara said as Ingun entered.
https://i.imgur.com/oVDkY8h.jpg
"I moved to a new house, yesterday", Ingun said, "but I never made it inside. Why does that happen?"
Sara: What..uhh.. what do you mean? Didn't you go home with Natalie?
https://i.imgur.com/7Hhq67b.jpg
Ingun: Natalie..? Who is Natalie?
Sara: Your sister, Natalie. You went home to your sisters house yesterday.
https://i.imgur.com/siuSAeC.jpg
Ingun: I don't have a sister. I want to go home to ride my horse. Do you like horses lady?
https://i.imgur.com/Gjs1c9i.jpg
Sara: Horses are very beatiful animals, but.. Ingun.. of course you have a sister. Don't you remember?
https://i.imgur.com/cTkRekD.jpg
Ingun: ?? No... what sister? My name is Tommy. I like horses.
Sara: Oh, oh.. I see. My name is Sara, I work here as a psychologist.
Sara began to understand that Ingun might actually be dissociating. She had read about this as a student, and heard of patients diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder, but never actually met one before. She knew that this condition was typically caused by childhood abuse as a way for an individual to distance and detatch themselves from trauma. A person with this disorder would have two or more seperate identities, known as alters, with each their own personality traits, unique history, likes and dislikes.
Sara also knew that there was no real cure for the disorder. The best thing she could do for Ingun, was to make the identities aware of each other, teach her/them about the condition and how best to deal with it, as well as offer psychotherapy to help Ingun and/or her alters to deal with her past trauma.
https://i.imgur.com/JRIbRjt.jpg
Tommy: I'm only ten years old. I have no job. Are you a doctor?
Sara: Yes, Tommy, I am a doctor. I help people get better. Do you have any friends, Tommy?
Tommy: I have no friends. I only have mommy and my horse. We live together in a big house on a big field. Mommy is very good to me.
https://i.imgur.com/6oWKyu1.jpg
Sara: Oh, thats good to hear Tommy. Does mommy have a name?
Tommy: Yes, her name is Ingun. She likes to make food. She makes the best cakes!
https://i.imgur.com/hvra99s.jpg
Tommy: My mommy is a doctor, just like you, and she has said that if her boss gives her a raise, we will buy a new horse!
Sara: That sounds very nice, Tommy. Do you have a father?
https://i.imgur.com/AvmSAHA.jpg
Tommy: No, father has ran away! He doesn't like mommy and he doesn't like horses!
Sara: Oh, I am sorry to hear that, Tommy.
https://i.imgur.com/x2aGHry.jpg
Ingun: S-sorry to hear w-what? I... ap-pologize... I m-must have blacked out for a s-second..
Sara: That's ok.. so, you don't remember anything of what we just talked about?
Ingun: I d-don't know.. I remember c-coming here, w-walking up the stairs and s-sitting down.. t-that's what I remember...
https://i.imgur.com/zirgiwu.jpg
Ingun: D-do you know w-why that happens?
Sara: Well, umm.. it looks like you have a condition called dissociative identity disorder.
Sara explained everything about the disorder to Ingun, and what she could or couldn't do about it. She also recommended for Ingun to start keeping a journal as a way to communicate between her alters to make them more aware of each other, and as a way for Ingun and Sara to uncover how many there were of them.
https://i.imgur.com/XPoPr26.jpg
Ingun was relieved to finally get an explanation, but also sad to have such an untreatable diagnosis.
"So.. I h-have to.... live with t-this for the rest of my l-life?" Ingun said with a sorrow in her voice.
Sara: Well, the bad news is that... yes, you do, but the good news is that it is possible to greatly reduce the impact it has on your life.
Sara: I will teach you several coping mechanisms, and together we will uncover the triggers that causes these switches between your alters, so that you can recognize when it happens and get a lot more control.
https://i.imgur.com/1kGpeXW.jpg
Sara: It is also very important that you have support from your loved ones, and already you moving in with your sister is a HUGE step forward! I think it is so not only for you, but also for Natalie. I think that both you and your sister need each other.
Ingun was listening intently. Sara told her about Tommy, and went on to explain in further detail what plan and strategy they should use, before the time was up and she had to dismiss Ingun for the day. Ingun would continue to see Sara daily for the next couple of months as step one of the plan, before it would be reduced to every other day and eventually only weekly. Atleast that was the plan so far.
https://i.imgur.com/ZzL03IJ.jpg
https://i.imgur.com/WX7z9CQ.jpg
Ingun felt better after the session was over, but became a little uneasy when she came downstairs and didn't see Natalie anywhere.
https://i.imgur.com/xjyr7ge.jpg
Well, Natalie hadn't gone to far, she just had to use the toilet.
Natalie: I am so proud of you from sitting through your first session alone! Tell me, what did Sara say?
Ingun explained everything Sara had told her, about the dissociation and the alters, and about Tommy, the 10 year old boy that loved horses.
https://i.imgur.com/S1xQvb0.jpg
Natalie: Ahh.. that explains why you shouted yeehaw and imitated a horse right after we came home yesterday!
Ingun: Wow, I r-really did that? T-that's kind of funny, in a w-way.
https://i.imgur.com/AlD5nDj.jpg
Natalie: Maybe we should buy a horse next!
https://i.imgur.com/cxOmsZR.jpg
Ingun: I w-would much rather have a new c-cooking oven!
Natalie: Hahaha, yeah, why not!? I think we can stop by and get one on the way home!
https://i.imgur.com/s2qrtbo.jpg
And so they did..
https://i.imgur.com/tM8I6ca.jpg
All of a sudden money didn't appear to be any problem for Natalie. She hadn't bought anything expensive in a good while, so she had built up a little bit of a cash reserve, so getting a new oven was no problem.. Natalie now only wanted the best for her sister, she wanted to give her everything she wanted, everything she could give her...
https://i.imgur.com/qo71sgD.png
Tori Amos – Horses
I got me some horses to ride on, to ride on
They say that your demons can't go there
So I got me some horses to ride on, to ride on
As long as your army keeps perfectly still
And maybe I'll find me a sailor, a tailor
And maybe together we'll make mother well
So I got me some horses to ride on, to ride on
As long as your army keeps perfectly still
---
https://i.imgur.com/t2yZRNH.jpg
Ingun was having sweet dreams of baking the most delicious cakes and pastries...
https://i.imgur.com/D6MtScV.jpg
Aaron enjoyed his solitude staying awake at night.
After Aaron was done eating, Billy got up to eat the leftover salmon that Natalie had made yesterday for breakfast.
https://i.imgur.com/GKAaf7s.jpg
"Morning Billy" Aaron said, as he walked out to play in the treehouse. Billy didn't respond, he was perhaps a little grumpy this morning. The sun was already up, and soon it would be time for the kids to get ready for school, and Ingun for her first session alone with Dr. Sara...
https://i.imgur.com/jt6IXSw.jpg
https://i.imgur.com/9PfjPky.jpg
Rise and shine, Ingun..
https://i.imgur.com/W2AZ55F.jpg
Her sister, Natalie, woke up downstairs at more or less the same time. She had to remember to take her medication, as usual.
https://i.imgur.com/FcQyYDY.jpg
The first thought on Inguns mind was to buy a new and more expensive oven. She wasn't to happy about the one that Natalie owned. "I want one that is worth atleast 1000 simeoleons!" she thought.
https://i.imgur.com/CzYmZxv.jpg
Natalie called the repair man to fix the broken tv.
https://i.imgur.com/H1Z9uJ7.jpg
https://i.imgur.com/bSGmVZ2.jpg
The kids were on their way to school.
https://i.imgur.com/vceHVra.jpg
Natalie gave Ingun a hug, and Ingun felt protected and watched after. "Time to go to the doctors office, sis" Natalie said.
Ingun: O..ok, I just hope we won't meet any c-criminals on the way...
https://i.imgur.com/NmHnbvT.jpg
Natalie: Relax, Ingun! Its broad daylight! You know criminals usually operate in the dark.. and even if one tried something, I would kick his ass! Come now!
https://i.imgur.com/FIGyG2O.jpg
Ingun wasn't all that convinced. She had a little nervous breakdown, so Natalie had to call on her a few times before she would leave the bathroom.
https://i.imgur.com/TbhdAE3.jpg
https://i.imgur.com/mIj2DCz.jpg
"Come along now, Ingun! I'm watching over you!" Natalie called for her again as she entered the hallway at the hospital.
https://i.imgur.com/deJzYdX.jpg
Saras makeshift office is just up that staircase. "You go up there now, Ingun. I'll be in the waiting room watching a movie or something until you are done. Sara is very good and friendly, there is nothing to worry about!" Natalie said reassuringly.
https://i.imgur.com/WvStMFK.jpg
"Good morning, Ingun! Nice to see you! Please, have a seat!" Sara said as Ingun entered.
https://i.imgur.com/oVDkY8h.jpg
"I moved to a new house, yesterday", Ingun said, "but I never made it inside. Why does that happen?"
Sara: What..uhh.. what do you mean? Didn't you go home with Natalie?
https://i.imgur.com/7Hhq67b.jpg
Ingun: Natalie..? Who is Natalie?
Sara: Your sister, Natalie. You went home to your sisters house yesterday.
https://i.imgur.com/siuSAeC.jpg
Ingun: I don't have a sister. I want to go home to ride my horse. Do you like horses lady?
https://i.imgur.com/Gjs1c9i.jpg
Sara: Horses are very beatiful animals, but.. Ingun.. of course you have a sister. Don't you remember?
https://i.imgur.com/cTkRekD.jpg
Ingun: ?? No... what sister? My name is Tommy. I like horses.
Sara: Oh, oh.. I see. My name is Sara, I work here as a psychologist.
Sara began to understand that Ingun might actually be dissociating. She had read about this as a student, and heard of patients diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder, but never actually met one before. She knew that this condition was typically caused by childhood abuse as a way for an individual to distance and detatch themselves from trauma. A person with this disorder would have two or more seperate identities, known as alters, with each their own personality traits, unique history, likes and dislikes.
Sara also knew that there was no real cure for the disorder. The best thing she could do for Ingun, was to make the identities aware of each other, teach her/them about the condition and how best to deal with it, as well as offer psychotherapy to help Ingun and/or her alters to deal with her past trauma.
https://i.imgur.com/JRIbRjt.jpg
Tommy: I'm only ten years old. I have no job. Are you a doctor?
Sara: Yes, Tommy, I am a doctor. I help people get better. Do you have any friends, Tommy?
Tommy: I have no friends. I only have mommy and my horse. We live together in a big house on a big field. Mommy is very good to me.
https://i.imgur.com/6oWKyu1.jpg
Sara: Oh, thats good to hear Tommy. Does mommy have a name?
Tommy: Yes, her name is Ingun. She likes to make food. She makes the best cakes!
https://i.imgur.com/hvra99s.jpg
Tommy: My mommy is a doctor, just like you, and she has said that if her boss gives her a raise, we will buy a new horse!
Sara: That sounds very nice, Tommy. Do you have a father?
https://i.imgur.com/AvmSAHA.jpg
Tommy: No, father has ran away! He doesn't like mommy and he doesn't like horses!
Sara: Oh, I am sorry to hear that, Tommy.
https://i.imgur.com/x2aGHry.jpg
Ingun: S-sorry to hear w-what? I... ap-pologize... I m-must have blacked out for a s-second..
Sara: That's ok.. so, you don't remember anything of what we just talked about?
Ingun: I d-don't know.. I remember c-coming here, w-walking up the stairs and s-sitting down.. t-that's what I remember...
https://i.imgur.com/zirgiwu.jpg
Ingun: D-do you know w-why that happens?
Sara: Well, umm.. it looks like you have a condition called dissociative identity disorder.
Sara explained everything about the disorder to Ingun, and what she could or couldn't do about it. She also recommended for Ingun to start keeping a journal as a way to communicate between her alters to make them more aware of each other, and as a way for Ingun and Sara to uncover how many there were of them.
https://i.imgur.com/XPoPr26.jpg
Ingun was relieved to finally get an explanation, but also sad to have such an untreatable diagnosis.
"So.. I h-have to.... live with t-this for the rest of my l-life?" Ingun said with a sorrow in her voice.
Sara: Well, the bad news is that... yes, you do, but the good news is that it is possible to greatly reduce the impact it has on your life.
Sara: I will teach you several coping mechanisms, and together we will uncover the triggers that causes these switches between your alters, so that you can recognize when it happens and get a lot more control.
https://i.imgur.com/1kGpeXW.jpg
Sara: It is also very important that you have support from your loved ones, and already you moving in with your sister is a HUGE step forward! I think it is so not only for you, but also for Natalie. I think that both you and your sister need each other.
Ingun was listening intently. Sara told her about Tommy, and went on to explain in further detail what plan and strategy they should use, before the time was up and she had to dismiss Ingun for the day. Ingun would continue to see Sara daily for the next couple of months as step one of the plan, before it would be reduced to every other day and eventually only weekly. Atleast that was the plan so far.
https://i.imgur.com/ZzL03IJ.jpg
https://i.imgur.com/WX7z9CQ.jpg
Ingun felt better after the session was over, but became a little uneasy when she came downstairs and didn't see Natalie anywhere.
https://i.imgur.com/xjyr7ge.jpg
Well, Natalie hadn't gone to far, she just had to use the toilet.
Natalie: I am so proud of you from sitting through your first session alone! Tell me, what did Sara say?
Ingun explained everything Sara had told her, about the dissociation and the alters, and about Tommy, the 10 year old boy that loved horses.
https://i.imgur.com/S1xQvb0.jpg
Natalie: Ahh.. that explains why you shouted yeehaw and imitated a horse right after we came home yesterday!
Ingun: Wow, I r-really did that? T-that's kind of funny, in a w-way.
https://i.imgur.com/AlD5nDj.jpg
Natalie: Maybe we should buy a horse next!
https://i.imgur.com/cxOmsZR.jpg
Ingun: I w-would much rather have a new c-cooking oven!
Natalie: Hahaha, yeah, why not!? I think we can stop by and get one on the way home!
https://i.imgur.com/s2qrtbo.jpg
And so they did..
https://i.imgur.com/tM8I6ca.jpg
All of a sudden money didn't appear to be any problem for Natalie. She hadn't bought anything expensive in a good while, so she had built up a little bit of a cash reserve, so getting a new oven was no problem.. Natalie now only wanted the best for her sister, she wanted to give her everything she wanted, everything she could give her...
Spoiler
Source on the disorder: https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/9792-dissociative-identity-disorder-multiple-personality-disorder
It was a new disorder for me to discover, I hadn't really heard about it before. I don't remember now excactly how I came across this, but I did do a lot of searching to understand mental illness and the effects of trauma on a person, so that's probably how I found it. I also found a youtube video of an interview with a woman with this disorder where she switches to at least one alter, and yeah.. learning about this and watching that video kind of blew my mind... not only is it extremely tragic, but also the lengths or own brains can go to, to preserve ourselves.. it left me with a feeling of... speechlessness.. jawdropping..
If it is of interest I may try to dig up the video again, but I think it was 20+ minutes long, or something..
Source on the disorder: https://my.clevelandclinic.org/health/diseases/9792-dissociative-identity-disorder-multiple-personality-disorder
It was a new disorder for me to discover, I hadn't really heard about it before. I don't remember now excactly how I came across this, but I did do a lot of searching to understand mental illness and the effects of trauma on a person, so that's probably how I found it. I also found a youtube video of an interview with a woman with this disorder where she switches to at least one alter, and yeah.. learning about this and watching that video kind of blew my mind... not only is it extremely tragic, but also the lengths or own brains can go to, to preserve ourselves.. it left me with a feeling of... speechlessness.. jawdropping..
If it is of interest I may try to dig up the video again, but I think it was 20+ minutes long, or something..
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