The Thorn of Secrets
Author's Notes ** I wanted to try something different in my sims3 game play and have discovered that once being terrified of supernatural EP (those Zombies just creep me out), now I'm in love wi...
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Chapter One – Memories run deep
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Memoirs are never easy to write, although with my mom’s genes and skills over the years I have learned from her historic successful publishing’s that it’s worth spending the months writing, the best outcome is the idea that a future “Fox” will read this and think, what a life my great ancestors have lived.
I decided to write my memoirs to share the raw truth of our family, and what our family name really means. It’s not written as a happy romance (that was my mom’s specialty), my memoirs are that of love, lust, heart breaks, betrayal, murder, guilty pleasures and all the events that have taken place in my and my family’s life. It’s time to unleash the truth and the story to be told.
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As I read back what I have written, I look out into the open and reminisce, remembering what an innocent child I was, and never imagined life would have evolved to this.
I look upon my family and think to my self, “Will they too live such a hard complex life?” “Have I been the best parent, guardian and role model I can be?”
All these secrets I carry upon my soul, the burdens, and the anguish, not to forget to mention the pain I have caused my loved ones.
“Will all the secrets be frowned upon?”, “will our name be tarnished?” …. “Will anyone actually be proud to be a “Fox” after all?”
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In my many years growing up, and now in my old age, I sit back and remember all the events that have made me who I am today, my family, who we are and all the events good and bad that have brought us to this place today.
Ahh as I sit back with my eyes closed…….. Drifting…..
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I can feel that hot summer sun against my skin, hearing the various birds chirping… the horses talking, even Shep barking at his own amusement. The smell of the fresh ripe sunflowers, I even remember seeing the old rusty Ford left to deteriorate in the field next to our property. The freshly baked waffles …….. This was home...
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My pa was not very close with myself and my two brothers; he adored my ma and was a very proud man. She only ever knew his true soft side. We just saw him as a cranky hard worker always reminding us how ‘useless’ we were.
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His time started early in the mornings where he would make sure we kids had a hot meal for breakfast before school and by the time we would get home from school there was always a hot meal waiting for us, we never sat at the table like a family, all ate at different times but there was always freshly cooked meals.
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By sunrise he would be outside tending to his garden, or working the land, fishing, gathering, finding any means to provide an income for us. He was a stubborn man and strict in his ways. As young boys we kept our respect for him but never really got to know him as well as ma did, maybe a bit of a gripe of mine I feel?
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Mom on the other hand, an amazing woman. She was truly the best friend anyone could have, always found time for everyone and most of all her family. Mom loved Shep and taught him to hunt, to help out as we were poor, to find things so we could sell them.
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People around our neighborhood loved ma, they always allowed her to ride their horses and train them, ma bonded with any living creature she came into contact with, it was a way she could make extra simoleons.
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Mom was a no nonsense woman, when there was trouble ma went to the city hall and made sure resolutions were made, always coming out with a smile on her face. A tough nut but a proud solider she was.
- “No guts no glory” she used to say to us all. I’ll never forget those words.
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Every festival and every event, Mom made us attend, and we had the best time any kid could have. A lot of happy memories growing up we had as kids.
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Ma even looked after one of the neighbors kids, just to help anyone she could. There were days we struggled; we didn’t have enough for us to eat. But ma always use to say
- “It’s the heart that does the giving; the fingers only let go”. I never understood what she meant by that, now I do…… ahh the memories of home…
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Growing up was tough, but I guess it made us tougher too.. our teenage years were only stepping stones to the future… little did we know then, but we sure did have some wonderful family outings, ma being the leader of course, ma was right in there with us….
- “Common boys who will win this competition?”……
“you better get your eating caps on ”, ma jokingly said as Dakota and Nicholas got ready to get pie faced.
“Eat your words Ma” grumbled Dakota ready to plunge,
“mom will let one of us win” whispered Nicholas before he plunged into the pie.
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Many nights Ma and Pa would sit outside gazing into the stars, talking and even sometimes giggling. It was so wonderful to hear mom giggling… she didn’t laugh often but Pa must of given her reasons to…..
“My love, our boys are all growing up” whispered Cheyenne.
“It’s only a few days away from graduation” She continued.
“Hush now kitten, you have raised them well”……
“They will do us proud, even the stone in our shoe – he will come good, I am sure.. hush now, enjoy the stars my pet” whispered Shawnee to his beloved as they gazed up into the sky.
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Pa was not a Supernatural fan and the one thing he hated was when the full moon was about. Most times he would mutter angry cuss words to himself; we were never allowed to be friend any supernaturals that was one of pa biggest rules.
“Uhh ohh … ah … my love, is that a zombie emerging from the ground again?” whispered Cheyenne.
“YES blasted creatures” cursed Shawnee.
“I guess that means it’s time to retire to bed my love?” Said Cheyenne as she rose to go inside, knowing too well it’s disrupted their stargazing and evening.
“Flipping fool you….. you cretin… zombie … you” Shawnee snapped as he went inside disgusted.
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Despite their differences Ma and Pa did get along and were in love, somehow… I guess non of us will ever understand their weird relationship but they truly did love one another, and never in public would pa show it, but when they were alone Ma got to see a side of Pa non of us ever would.
“You are my world, my kitten” Shawnee said as he grabbed a hold of Cheyenne..
“and you are my world too my love” whispered Cheyenne to her tough man, while his strong arms held her gently yet safely.
“Should we….?, but the boys will hear us”, she giggled like a little schoolgirl holding her trophy,
“no they are upstairs going about their own business, we will be quick and quiet” smirked Shawnee…
“ahh my love you are sneaky”. Giggled Cheyenne at the idea of being naughty for a night.
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