*waves* I wish I had been lurking on this thread at the top of the month! I'm having all those doubts about not feeling welcome or appreciated in certain places.
My combat method has been to just suffer silently and distance myself because I believe it's all in my head. I've not been writing (because I don't find it enjoyable right now) and I haven't been playing either. I don't have anything interesting to contribute to the conversation; others have goals and schedules, and keep themselves going constantly.
It's also frustrating to see tight groups of friends form and not be *inside* the group. It's such an immature way to think that I KNOW isn't right or fair but that's where I am. I had this trouble in college (and NOW), too: being an extra person in a large friend group. I think many people probably feel that way. The leftover. If I happen to come up in someone's brain then I'm included, otherwise...
...AND THEN you sometimes take for granted those friends who will always think of you. I've gotten better about keeping up with those people. :heart:
I know if I read more simlit or watched letsplays I would have people reciprocating but I don't have the energy to do much of anything, honestly. Therefore... it's my own fault for not participating more in the community. That's how I feel, at least. Does anyone else feel that way?
Sorry to unleash that on you guys.
Lots of love!! :heart:
