"CrazyJenny;12982588" wrote:
Well I could tell you my long boring story but here is an article about me to give you some background:
america.aljazeera.com/watch/shows/america-tonight/articles/2014/9/16/exclusive-could-thisnewtreatmentrevolutionizepsychiatricdisorder.html
Hope I'm not abusing any rules by posting that. If so I'll take it down.
So basically I have had OCD, obsessive compulsive disorder, since I was about 8 and then depression and some other health issues to go with it. So right now I am receiving stimulation to my DBS device, well I am actually in the blinded trial portion of the study so I may or may not be receiving stimulation but I think I am. So after we get a good setting I feel good, great actually. My OCD is still there but my depression is gone. It's amazing since before the surgery I can't even remember the last time I was happy. But unfortunately after 2 weeks I go back to 'normal.' Sometimes worse than normal. So I'm on this crazy rollercoaster and it's really draining me. It's really hard to be happy one day, laughing and singing and making plans for the future, and then the next day you are so miserable you want to die. So yeah, that's my story.
A relative of mine has a similar device and it's made their life really possible. I hope that you can find equilibrium! It sounds like there's hope, though, and having good days matters. Hold on to those. Write down somewhere you can see without trying (a board on a wall near your bed?) that November Whatever Was a Good Day: These Happen; They Happen to Me and More Will Happen, so you don't have to try so hard to remember, because that trying
is a mountain on the other days.
We need a hugs emoji. Do we have a hugs emoji?
