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10 years ago
"CathyTea;13672160" wrote:"Carewren123;13671694" wrote:
I was in quite the creative slump for a while as a result. But isn't it great that we have the wonderful community? We're not alone in our losses. That's a comforting thought to me.
I've been thinking about this comment, Carewren. After my dad passed, I stopped writing for several years. At the time, I felt that it was a lack of creative energy. Now, over a decade later, I see that the grieving process is a creative act. When someone who's been a big part of us moves on, we, in essence, need to recreate ourselves--integrating that person into us even more fully--and that is such an act of creation. All of my creative energies were involved in that integration act during those years of grief. I came out of those years a different person, with a view of the world that is different--and my writing and what I have to say is different, too. Sometimes, living is our act of creation.
I think I was simply too consumed with my grief, thoughts of my grandmother and my mom, aunts, and uncles who are hurting probably more than me, that I couldn't concentrate on anything creatively. I didn't really even want to. I thought that writing about it would help, but when I finished that story I still didn't feel like working on anything else. So I just took a break. Then I was too busy with the move to write. Now that we're getting settle, I feel a lot better. I'm trying to catch up on everything thing. But I'm finally finding myself excited, eagerly anticipating, to begin writing again.
I think I really just needed that extra bit of time before I could work on anything else writing wise.
I also spent a lot of time thinking about the writing that I've done since September, and I almost felt like some of the themes that my stories focused on helped me prepare for this loss. So much of my writing focused on going on with life, enjoying the happy moments while you can, family love. Something definitely guided me in that direction I think.