Where is my BF2042 Gold?

I purchased BF2042 Gold Edition in 2021 at launch.  Tried playing it but was full of bug, crashes, etc.  I put it down and left it, until now.  I hear they fixed a lot of bug updates and all, so i went to re download it but cant find my edition.  I see Elite Edition and cross gen edition.  

I spent $129.99 for Gold.  Did EA just take my money and my digital license?