I'm sorry you feel so passionately about your skill issue. With enough practice, I'm sure you can be good enough. Just know that the majority of us playing multiplayer games are looking down on console peasants for their skill barrier. If you spent much time anywhere else, you would see that console people cry about being matched with PC folks, because the skill disparity is too large. M/kb are by far the superior option, even if you account for levels of aim assist. PC players in Marvel Rivals constantly complain about how bad the console players are, which is why they don't want crossplay. The console players literally bring down the capabilities of the entire team. Now, if we used your logic, that would never, ever, be the case. How can this be? Maybe it's because you're catastrophizing over your skill issue. It's common, so you have lots of company.