I play HOTAS bc it's fun, not cuz I'm good at it... and PVP is destroying me

I've played a little with controller (Dualshock 4), but I prefer the HOTAS (T-Flight 4) because the layout just feels more natural to me and I find it easier to manage the throttle than with the thumb-stick.

I even tried completely remapping the controller to be more like what I was used to playing HAWX and other flying games (with throttle on the L2-R2 triggers), and while it helped, I still think the flight-stick works better, at least for me.