Chapter 1.2 - Audition (first half)
Upon arriving in Roaring Heights, Violet was optimistic. Her dream of moving to California had come true, and she thought it wouldn’t be so hard to become an actress. After all, her drama teacher in high school always told her just how talented she was, and she had always been involved in school plays. But two years passed by, and the talent agency never got her good roles or auditions. She got many roles as an uncredited extra and even had a line in a cheap sci-fi movie, but that was all.
However, she refused to give up. She knew many stories of famous people who started from the bottom, and she wanted to be one of them. So she kept practicing for auditions and rehearsing, always aiming for a lead role that never came.
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And she wasn’t the only one who was practicing until exhaustion. Brooke was becoming a renowned musician, sometimes playing in four or five parties a week, not to mention the bars and clubs that were always asking her to play there on weekends. She was very dedicated, and she was proud to play every song her clients requested, even the weirdest and rarest. Her repertoire went from Ed Sheeran to Mötley Crüe, and she was always learning new songs, practicing them all day long.
Violet was glad for her friend, but she envied her a little bit. It was hard to see everything working out for Brooke while she was just a neglected actress like all of her friends. It was also hard to see Brooke paying their bills and their food, while she couldn’t even afford a pizza.
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Being around her friends and sharing experiences with them became Violet’s greatest relief. She no longer felt scared when she heard their stories about the lame roles they got. Instead, she shared with them her own stories. MD always laughed when she quoted her line in the sci-fi movie: “don’t underestimate us, earthling”. Sometimes, when neither Violet or her friends had money for drinks or food, they would stay at her house until the early hours of the morning, chatting and watching TV. Normally, it wouldn’t be a problem, because Brooke worked long hours at night and Violet had the house only for herself.
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On the other hand, Brooke wasn’t amused the first time she got home at 3 am and found Violet’s friends laughing and screaming in the living room, with cans of beer and empty bags of chips scattered on the floor, and the music turned on at the loudest volume. Violet was cuddling with Mark in the couch, but she got up as soon as she saw the terrible look on her best friend’s face. “Hey, Boo. Sorry about the mess, I though you wouldn’t be back until morning, so I…”
“So you thought you could destroy our house?”, Brooke finished her sentence. What Violet wanted to say was that she intended to clean everything up before she arrived in the morning, but she didn’t get the chance to say anything else before Brooke continued: “You guys should be ashamed of coming to someone else’s house and doing this mess. I doubt that you do that in your own houses”.
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“We are really sorry”, Mark said, trying to appease her. “Trust me, we are cleaning everything up. Just give us one hour or two”.
“That’s a lot of time!”, Brooke shrieked. Violet hadn’t seen her so angry since the day when a girl from their elementary school put glue on her hair, years ago.”I worked all night and now I want to sleep for a few hours, so I can wake up without feeling like crap this morning and practice the songs for a birthday party that will happen tomorrow afternoon. And I can’t rest while you’re all in my house. So just do me a favor and get out!”
Violet was appaled by her reaction, but she knew the house was hers too and she had every right to want a good night’s sleep. She started saying goodbye for her friends, and then Sam stormed: “You can’t just tell Vi what to do, you know. It’s her house too”.
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“It’s okay, Sam, you don’t need to…”
“Oh, shut up”, Brooke said to Sam, not even listening to Violet. “I always told Violet she shouldn’t hang out with you and your friends, and here’s the reason. You are all a bunch of frustrated people who likes to discourage her, and you have no respect for her, for me or our house. If you don’t leave at the count of five, I’m calling the police”.
“And what if I stay?”, Sam challenged her, and then Violet couldn’t take it anymore. She wanted all her friends to get along, and that stupid fight was unbearable to her. Before Brooke had the opportunity to reply, she yelled:
“Enough!” It seemed to get their attentions, because all the people in the room looked at her. “Brooke, Sam is right when she says that you can’t boss me around in my own house. Sam, Brooke is right when she says that she deserves to sleep. Let’s just call it a night, okay? I’ll clean the house tomorrow and everything will be fine”.
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Mark, Sam and MD left while Violet collected the trash from the floor. Brooke seemed to calm down after they were gone, and even helped her to pick up one can of beer. “Sorry that I yelled at you”, she said. “I didn’t mean to… I mean, I just got so mad when I saw you and that guy cuddling, and then I started screaming”.
“Why would you care?”, Violet asked, coldly.
“Well, I just worry about you. Friends do that”, she replied, but she didn’t sound very convincing. Violet wanted to ask her what was wrong, but it was late, she was very stressed out and couldn’t bring herself to continue that conversation. She collected the last bag of chips, said good night and went to bed.
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A few weeks later, Violet’s agent got her a well-paid gig in another sci-fi movie, and she was very excited when she signed a contract for a whole year, instead of her usual contracts for just one scene. She went to the set to get her script the next day, and was disappointed to find out they wanted her to be just a recurring extra, without any lines or significance. At that moment, she just wanted to tell them to forget it and go away, but she still needed the money, so she stayed.
She kept coming to the set everyday to do her scenes, feeling her heart heavy, and she stayed there until everyone else had left, to admire the set and imagine how she would feel if she had a relevant role.
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Violet did her best to get the director’s attention, so maybe he would think of her in his next movie, but all she got was constant requests to help clean up the set and cross the city to buy more fake blood, more fruits to the actor’s dressing rooms, and so on. She even helped the set decorators build a starship, which was actually kind of fun. It was not so fun, however, when she talked to the set decorators and found out that many of them were failed actors. “You are young, and you are allowed to dream”, an older man told her. “But when you are married and have children, like me, you just do what you can to get money and provide for your family”.
She had always imagined herself having her own family one day, but she just wanted it after she managed to be a famous actress. She had started thinking that day might never come, though.
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She was glad when that year was over, the time stipulated in the contract ended, and she was free to start looking for better gigs. On her last day working on that sci-fi production, she climbed down the stairs to the set feeling more determined than she had ever been. She promised herself that would be the last time she worked as an extra.
Sbe put on her alien costume and the green makeup like she had done everyday in the past few months. Then she tried to engage in conversation with the producers of the movie, making sure to ask them to remember her in the future. Most of the producers said nothing, but one of them smiled and said: “sure, Vicky”.
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It became rather obvious to her that the producers wouldn’t remember her, let alone call her for their future productions. The talent agency was also useless, never offering her good opportunities. Violet had to look for auditions on her own, and that’s what she did. As she didn’t have money to buy a computer, she spent her days in the library to use theirs.
She sent e-mails to every movie director or producer in Roaring Heights. She made a profile on a website aimed for beginner actors. She applied for so many auditions that she barely had time to do anything but rehearse and memorize lines. Still, most of the directors never seemed interested in her. A few of them even said they liked her performance, but admitted they were looking for celebrities.
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She also refused every opportunity to work as an extra, so she could focus on auditions for decent roles. It wasn’t like she wanted just lead roles, she just wanted to have at least one line. But refusing other jobs brought her consequences, and she soon found herself completely broke. She had to ask Brooke to lend her money all the time, and nothing made her more embarrassed than having to ask for coins to get the subway and go for one more audition.
Brooke never complained, but Violet noticed how worried she was getting. She went to the grocery store and asked her if she needed food, she went to the drugstore and asked if she needed something, as if she thought that she was starving. Brooke also didn’t know about all of the roles she was refusing because she didn’t want to work as an extra, and thought simply that she wasn’t being offered any jobs. Once, when Violet was reading the newspaper after breakfast, she even tried offering her a job carrying and cleaning instruments for her musician friends, but Violet refused it too. She just had no time.
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In the next few months, she lost a lot of weight, so focused on the auditions and rehearsals to auditions that she barely had time to eat. Although Brooke didn’t care to lend her money, she did care about Violet skipping meals. On a thursday morning, she woke up earlier and made a huge breakfast, including everything Violet liked to eat, to force some food into her mouth. Violet was touched by her act, but her phone rang as soon as she started to put marmalade on her toast. “I have to pick it up, it might be important”, she told Brooke, right before leaving the breakfast table.
But it wasn’t any producers or directors calling to give her feedback about any of her auditions. It was Sam. Violet tried not to be disappointed. “Hey, Sammy. What’s up?”
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“Vi! Listen to me, we have no time to chat. Can you meet me at the subway station in thirty minutes? I’ll explain everything when we’re on our way”.
“When we’re on our way to where?”, asked Violet. Sam was talking fast and seemed to be overexcited, so she couldn’t really understand anything that she was saying. “Sam, slow down”.
“I can’t slow down! It’s an audition, Vi. Not any audition, but an audition to Roger Jankowski’s newest movie. And we are going, you and me! Just meet me at the subway station, can be? I just learnt about this audition a few minutes ago, and we are already late”.
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All she understood was the name “Roger Jankowski” and the word “audition”, but that was enough for her to know that she wanted to go desperately. Roger was the most famous movie director in Roaring Heights. He wrote and directed many musical films, and received at least a dozen Oscars in the past twenty years. If Sam actually got them an audition to his newest movie, then she had every reason to be so excited. “I… Of course I want to go, Sam, but… I’m still wearing pajamas, and… And breakfast…”
“How can you think of breakfast with an audition like this going on?”, shrieked Sam. “It’s a chance of a lifetime, Vi. So you better hurry up, because if you aren’t there in thirty minutes, I’ll go without you!”
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