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mercuryfoam
5 years agoSeasoned Ace
I’m glad you’ve chosen to write and keep this chapter.
Spoiler
This chapter is dark, but it so accurately captures the horrible effects of having narcissistic parent/s. You’ve been showing us the effects of April’s years of emotional and psychological abuse from a mother that has s*cked her dry, to the point that April has nothing left but insecurity and jealousy, self-blame, and self-sabotage.
To me, this chapter is so important because throughout this time, April has been trying to find herself using Sandy as her role model. And I feel so sorry for her and watching her sabotage her relationships with her friends. It was really painful to read those, so much more painful than this chapter because April knew what she was doing but she couldn’t stop. She’s such a tragic character I didn’t know how to comment on her anymore (Except her relationship with Caleb, bah. I’m still on the fence to if he can support her since they’ve got similar demons). Here, she’s finally looking at herself again. I mean, I get it, she’s constantly criticising herself and focused on her own shortcomings, I wouldn’t want to introspect myself ever again especially after the tormentor’s gone. And especially when doing so will make April spiral back into old unhealthy habits. But she needed to do this.
She didn’t kill ‘Sandy’, but here she finally admits that being ‘Sandy’ is proving worse. I think she can start healing from this if given the right circumstance and support.
P.S. - Still don’t like Caleb. He understands her, but I still have a strong mental image that they’ll crash and burn together. >_> Please totally prove me wronggg!
And please keep all your chapters. You wrote this so beautifully. The pictures, writing, April's thoughts. I thought it was a masterpiece. Dark one, but still a masterpiece.
EDIT: I also love how you lulled me into a false sense of security that I can finally detach your characters from people I care about and then you go smack this in my face. :joy: But I think that's a good thing. :)
To me, this chapter is so important because throughout this time, April has been trying to find herself using Sandy as her role model. And I feel so sorry for her and watching her sabotage her relationships with her friends. It was really painful to read those, so much more painful than this chapter because April knew what she was doing but she couldn’t stop. She’s such a tragic character I didn’t know how to comment on her anymore (Except her relationship with Caleb, bah. I’m still on the fence to if he can support her since they’ve got similar demons). Here, she’s finally looking at herself again. I mean, I get it, she’s constantly criticising herself and focused on her own shortcomings, I wouldn’t want to introspect myself ever again especially after the tormentor’s gone. And especially when doing so will make April spiral back into old unhealthy habits. But she needed to do this.
She didn’t kill ‘Sandy’, but here she finally admits that being ‘Sandy’ is proving worse. I think she can start healing from this if given the right circumstance and support.
P.S. - Still don’t like Caleb. He understands her, but I still have a strong mental image that they’ll crash and burn together. >_> Please totally prove me wronggg!
And please keep all your chapters. You wrote this so beautifully. The pictures, writing, April's thoughts. I thought it was a masterpiece. Dark one, but still a masterpiece.
EDIT: I also love how you lulled me into a false sense of security that I can finally detach your characters from people I care about and then you go smack this in my face. :joy: But I think that's a good thing. :)