Fear of starting a Youtube Channel

I understand how you feel. I love playing the Sims and so I just decided to research more let's plays and come up with ideas for my own sims 4 channel but it's very sadening when my own fiancee dosent like it all that much and even told me a week after getting it for me that he regreted it! And he got it because I was so depressed waiting for his job to finally hire me and now I'm fired and jobless and alittle depressed so why not try and get out of it? Do that lol. Don't care what others think, just have fun. I play because it makes me happy and my brain to busy to be depressed most times and I'm very shy so I'm hoping a channel might bring me out alittle more. At least socially xD.