Fear of starting a Youtube Channel

It's very likely that all those subscriptions are people you know in real life if you haven't posted any videos on your channel yet. I've got one video and no subs and couldn't imagine subscribing to someone I don't know with no videos. So if you don't think any of them are interested in your channel content and they're stopping you from posting there then what's the point of having the channel? I'd just start again and not tell anyone about it - but I prefer RL and YT to be seperate. If you don't want to keep your personal life and youtube life seperate then you need to find your confidence from somewhere, but class mates are mean and I personally wouldn't have wanted anyone at school to know about a youtube account I had (in fact I deleted my youtube account and files of our videos when my "friend" found them out of embarressment, my family have never quite forgiven me (i filmed funny videos with siblings and cousins... and now they're all lost).

What I'm trying to say is that 40 subs from people who knock your confidence and don't care about sims videos is way worse than having 0 subs on an account that no bullies know about. So either way you're pretty much starting from scratch. Unless you've done lots of channel art, but I'm sure you can re-use that. I've told a few people about mine but there's no way I'm giving them links and I've told them not to tell anyone. If they were interested in watching Sims on YT they'd find the video eventually anyway.

The other thing you can do is just machinimas bc you can't see or hear you (look at Rémi Marocelli's Bella Goth one on YT for ideas). I've had a go at a machinima style teaser video (I can't post links yet, but look up Evie Bread 100 baby challenge) and it's not particularly impressive and my video editor and I nearly died making it so they're not easy I guess...

Good luck!