Lucky Girl - Completed

@DaniRose2143 Ive been thinking about your comment for ages,

this chapter was actually one of the ones directly based off my own experience. When I was between 16 and 18 I routinely did this kind of stuff with boys, never once stopping to think about the dangers or the potential consequences - why? Because it got my adrenaline pumping, and when I had a crush on someone it really never occurred to me to think about anything else but how exciting it was to be alone with someone, and the possibilities of what could happen when nobody else was around. I used to get it trouble for it too, and I just thought that my parents were uncool for getting angry.

Now? I would never do that. I think that the instinct to avoid potentially dangerous situations is something that we don’t always develop until a bit after teen hood. It’s SUCH a vulnerable time, and if I had a teenage daughter and found out she was doing these kinds of things, I’d have freaked out too.

I’m only now thinking about aspects of this chapter and wondering if I kind of fudged it. Jude is meant to be a bit of a morally grey character, but not unforgivable. At least not at this point. Perhaps if I were to even go back and write the story again, I might change this part around and do it differently. The thing is though, the part with the light is something that actually did happen to me before!! Kind of. Except instead of a torch it was the headlights of his car. He told me a scary story and then switched off the headlights while driving, and I remember it being SO terrifying, but then afterwards being kind of obsessed with him for being so dangerous. (Car headlights is worse than a torch, of course. That was absolutely crazy, thinking back on it)

The thing with writing is that you’re never sure how a piece will come across to the person reading it, it’s coloured with your own judgement and experience, so sometimes it’s hard to apply another point of view. That’s why I love when people comment, it lets me know where peoples heads are at, and how a chapter or character has impacted them. I can honestly say that this chapter wasn’t meant to be terrifying or sinister, and if it came across that way then I have to put my hands up and admit that I could have done a better job,

Thanks so much for your feedback Dani ❤️