@rednenemon
hey there! i can really empathize with how you're feeling right now; i struggle with a pretty severe mental illness and i recently became basically immobile due to some nerve damage in my leg. between doctor's appointments, caring for my mental health, and senses of self worth, i can understand how everything can become overwhelming that is currently happening in your life right now. i'm truly sorry that you're going through what you're experiencing right now, and i wish i had some sort of world shifting advice that could make it all work out in the best at the end.
i'm not sure if you are close to your mother at all, but if you are it may be a good idea to be assertive and express to her that you need some space until the strain surrounding your personal life has lightened up a bit. my own mother normally won't respect when i say i need space, and normally what i have to do is simply refuse to answer her phone calls or messages until i feel like i am able to handle it again. i know not everyone can do that with their parent, sometimes it's really hard to get away from them without them making you feel like a monster for needing to breathe, and just keep in mind that you do matter and that you have every right to breathe without hands around your neck just as much as the next person.
not entirely sure if this is what you needed to hear, or if any of the small advice i gave could help you, but i hope this at least made you feel like you were being heard. (:
