"goofygoober25;12939510" wrote:
I am so glad this thread was made. I honestly hope you all find some small comfort here. As for me, I have a lot on my shoulders right now, and I am so worried. This year my mom was in ICU for two weeks and almost died of a severe infection. At one point the doctors said she only had a 15% chance of living. Luckily she made it through but she is just so incredibly sick that I fear I may lose her. She happens to be my best friend second only to my husband. I feel like I am losing my family. My father passed. I do not have contact with my sisters because of their actions. One is a prescription drug addict and constantly steals from or begs for my moms pain medication. Mom just gives in because shes too sick to argue and she suffers for it. My other sister fell in with the wrong people, and shows signs of street drug use and I am all but certain she is pregnant because she is starting to look like it. She refuses to get a job and milks off the government and takes advantage of my mom. I just cannot stand the fact that they constantly take and take and take from her. To top if off, I have had a disability since I was 15 years old (26 now) and have been unable to work because of it. I cannot get any kind of financial help because I have never worked. My husband and I have absolutely no savings to our name because all of it goes to the doctor bills because of psychiatric and health related issues and medication which are vital to my well being (only reason I am simming right now is because a computer and the game were gifted to me as a gift from my grandmother in an attempt for me to reach out to others and have a little fun on the side) I feel so alone because I have no friends besides my husband/mom/grandmother and because of my disability I will never be able to start a family of my own. I feel like I have complained too much, but I just feel like I had to get that off my chest and I am thankful for the listeners. I realize there are people a lot worse off than I am and I am thankful for what I have, but sometimes it feels like too much. Thanks for reading, whoever takes the time to read this. I hope you all find happiness, even if it is a small piece.
@goofygoober25, have you checked out Social Security Disability? Even if you have never worked, you may qualify for benefits under one of your parent's social security numbers. Alternately there is Medicare/ Medicaid and Welfare benefits. I would recommend that you contact 1) a lawyer (they will work pro bono) about what government benefits you may be eligible for; 2) a social services agency, who will point you towards whatever local resources may be available from charity and such and 3) a support group for your disability. You NEED to have social contact outside of your family, even if it is only on-line.
I don't know the extent of your disability, obviously, but if you could join a book club or take a class it would help you meet people. Believe me, nothing can raise your spirits like being social. I'm fairly shy and have trouble approaching new people, but I find that even the smallest things can raise my spirits a great deal. It may sound ridiculous, but you might want to look into volunteering for a charity a few hours every month. Even if you are only making phone calls from home, helping others is a marvel for your self-esteem.
I was badly injured in a car accident many years ago but have recovered a great deal of my mobility - more than my doctors originally told me was possible. The hardest part for me was being forced to retire from my career - I was very lucky to have loved my job. I was also lucky enough to have excellent insurance and was able to find some really good doctors. So I can empathize with your situation to a certain extent. Getting help or getting out of the house to socialize may seem like an insurmountable mountain, but I have learned that what looks like a mountain ahead of you usually turns into a molehill once you have done it and it is in the past.
I hope you are feeling better soon.
