new player, games are way too difficult

Maybe try firing range for some time every day so you can get that feel of guns in this game. Apex is very hard but once you get it right then it gets much easier, maybe try to use Marksmans more and fight longer range engagements if you wanna have fun while game is too hard for you.

You totally need to play Control LTM when it comes back, it will make you much better in no time because its just instant action with respawns.