Am I doing as poorly as I think?

@LLcraigJ0302Here's my suggestion, play duos, and no fill, take as much time as you need, explore the maps, and if you die, which you will, you don't need to apologize to anyone! When you feel ready, queue up as a duo, or trios, which ever you prefer.

There's also no need to analyze anything, it's a game, have fun....unless you're trying to make a career out of it! lol