I suck so bad and other things

I am no expert by any means, but I’d say try playing recon. With recon you get the scope and spotting ability. You can load up another weapon (assault rifle) as your main, but at least you can peek through your spotting scope to see what’s happening (or set it in front of you), the hostiles get marked and you can better see where everyone is moving. It should help whilst you get into the swing of things. Just a suggestion… good luck!