Why make me a bullet sponge to enhance someone stats

Like i am already getting min 65 ms ping if i am lucky why the game is designed to threw me always in high ping lobbies and now the fairness between different ping is gone , low ping players have the massive advantage while i want to enjoy yet have to suffer , i was on ps5 and spend a lot of money to buy pc to really enjoy the game yet dice decided to threw some garbage update and on top of that threw me everytime in far away lobbies that i have like -60 ms to react , input lag is horrendous and i lose a lot of gunfight although i shot first , seriously i am considering deletion and refund