cant log in

I have an old account  that was a subscriber at that time , maybe a 8 years old account or more and now i installed the game on Steam ...i do know the name of the account but cant use it since it was not used on my Steam back when i made it.  But when i try to log in to Swotor account , account failed, when i try to change password it says it was sent on your email but who the hell remembers on which email it was made and so i just run around in circles for nothing..... i dont see any solution to this , thou i would love to play this game yet again after so many years ...whoever designed this login ...omg. I dont even want to recover that old account i just want to install the game on steam and just login automaticly with my steam account but ....nope.....if i made a new account on a new email ....and tried login in ...nope is not linked to steam account...........i mean Jesus Christ...if i try contacting anyone ...they send you to EA who sends you to SWOTOR site send you to Steam support who sends you to EA support......Brilliant. Anyways thanks for the worst experience login in into a game of my 42 years of life