"Writin_Reg;14723847" wrote:
And some of us can't play that "Go outside Game" no matter how badly we wish we could - because real life exists in the real world and unlike sims, some of us - through issues not of our own making have become like Twilight vampires and can only go outside on dark, cloudy overcast days when it is neither too hot or too cool - seemingly a very narrow window for many of us. For over 5 years I was housebound - and even now even though I finally have been able to develop a few immunities so I can go outside of my house - I am still under the gun if the sun is shining and temperatures are below 66 or higher than 77. I have a very narrow window - and really is it worth playing that game at all anyway - for some of us? Yes there are tons of things I dream about wanting to do - something as simple as attending the faery festival - when I know in reality - it ain't gonna happen - not for me. Nope. In reality I know life is too unpredictable outside the safety of my controlled environment and the sun - which I once practically worshiped, as I used to be a very outdoorsy kind of girl - and then I met a monster called CLL and even though I won the battle - the monster took away my life as I knew it. Must be nice to think - I will go to the beach today or a hike to the top of Mount Washington and visit the weather station - or maybe I will go for a nice long ride on horseback and have a picnic by one of the many lovely waterfalls we have here in the White Mountains. Yeah - I can think it all I like. Wish it even - but it doesn't mean it can happen. I deceive myself.
For some of us, even though we fought a long scary battle and supposedly won - we are still defeated and live life vicariously through a life simulation game - which frankly this version of the game stinks just about as badly as my real life. You have to remember one thing - lots and lots of those 7 billion players in your Outside game also play the game of real life - but on a very unequal palette. Just because you are healthy and capable to fully enjoy Outside with no adverse effects - some of the 7 billion are lucky to even see the outside once or twice a year. Instead we dream about it. We remember how it is to be YOU and all the many things we once enjoyed - without a second thought or care.
Some people - unmeaningly can be more cruel than they realize - as they think every one is just like them. I see the world go about its merry way every day - cars carrying people - all going somewhere. Me, well then I go back to my pc and try to enjoy life through a game....
Remember that, if you remember nothing else. Also remember - once some of us were just like YOU, and now we are not. Some of us - life is the game or we would have no life at all.
I'm sorry. The post was not directed towards you in any way, but I understand how it could be taken as ignorant.
Thank you for the informative post, you have opened my eyes in some form.
Best wishes.