We care! Supporting Simmers going through hard times.

Also wanted to clarify I am NOT suicidal.

Hello @CrazyJenny It is great that you have been able to have the surgery and have the DBS device implanted inside. I really hope that the stimulation of the electrodes helps you. Thankyou for sharing your life experiences with us. I send lots of special thoughts to you. I am sorry that your OCD causes you to feel very drained and is very tiring on you. I will keep you in my thoughts, and send hugs to you as you take each day and what it involves.

"rosemow;12982862" wrote:
Hello @CrazyJenny It is great that you have been able to have the surgery and have the DBS device implanted inside. I really hope that the stimulation of the electrodes helps you. Thankyou for sharing your life experiences with us. I send lots of special thoughts to you. I am sorry that your OCD causes you to feel very drained and is very tiring on you. I will keep you in my thoughts, and send hugs to you as you take each day and what it involves.

Thank you. I'm hoping things will go up from here. Right now I'm at the end of the two week cycle so things are going down. But Im seeing a doctor on Monday and hopefully he can reprogram me and all will be well again.

"CrazyJenny;12982870" wrote:

"rosemow;12982862" wrote:
Hello @CrazyJenny It is great that you have been able to have the surgery and have the DBS device implanted inside. I really hope that the stimulation of the electrodes helps you. Thankyou for sharing your life experiences with us. I send lots of special thoughts to you. I am sorry that your OCD causes you to feel very drained and is very tiring on you. I will keep you in my thoughts, and send hugs to you as you take each day and what it involves.

Thank you. I'm hoping things will go up from here. Right now I'm at the end of the two week cycle so things are going down. But Im seeing a doctor on Monday and hopefully he can reprogram me and all will be well again.

I hope that your appointment with your doctor goes well on Monday. I will be especially thinking of you on Monday.

"DerekJohnson;12983449" wrote:
Me and the love of my life have broken up, just before our wedding. No one did anything terribly wrong... We just changed and grew apart. Planning a wedding and, more importantly, a married life, may teach a couple love is not enough.

I understand that is not as serious and sad as what other people are going through. I may look like a very weak person now. The fact is, however, that I am crying a lot. It feels like the life I had in mind has fallen apart.

I apologise if it sounds like I am overreacting over nothing. But to me it is devastatingly sad..

My heart goes out to you! Some people do grow apart and I think it was meant to be for you two not to go on with the wedding.

I am not being mean, but I do believe there is a reason for everything in life even though we may not ever understand it. Sometimes later down the road a light bulb might come on and you realize why things didn't happen and then your mouth drops open in amazement. Some things you may never know and that's ok too.

Its ok to cry! Your life is still there, its just waiting, but you will go on! Stronger and wiser!

*Hugs*

"CrazyJenny;12982588" wrote:
Well I could tell you my long boring story but here is an article about me to give you some background:
america.aljazeera.com/watch/shows/america-tonight/articles/2014/9/16/exclusive-could-thisnewtreatmentrevolutionizepsychiatricdisorder.html
Hope I'm not abusing any rules by posting that. If so I'll take it down.

So basically I have had OCD, obsessive compulsive disorder, since I was about 8 and then depression and some other health issues to go with it. So right now I am receiving stimulation to my DBS device, well I am actually in the blinded trial portion of the study so I may or may not be receiving stimulation but I think I am. So after we get a good setting I feel good, great actually. My OCD is still there but my depression is gone. It's amazing since before the surgery I can't even remember the last time I was happy. But unfortunately after 2 weeks I go back to 'normal.' Sometimes worse than normal. So I'm on this crazy rollercoaster and it's really draining me. It's really hard to be happy one day, laughing and singing and making plans for the future, and then the next day you are so miserable you want to die. So yeah, that's my story.

A relative of mine has a similar device and it's made their life really possible. I hope that you can find equilibrium! It sounds like there's hope, though, and having good days matters. Hold on to those. Write down somewhere you can see without trying (a board on a wall near your bed?) that November Whatever Was a Good Day: These Happen; They Happen to Me and More Will Happen, so you don't have to try so hard to remember, because that trying is a mountain on the other days.

We need a hugs emoji. Do we have a hugs emoji?

"DerekJohnson;12983449" wrote:
Me and the love of my life have broken up, just before our wedding. No one did anything terribly wrong... We just changed and grew apart. Planning a wedding and, more importantly, a married life, may teach a couple love is not enough.

I understand that is not as serious and sad as what other people are going through. I may look like a very weak person now. The fact is, however, that I am crying a lot. It feels like the life I had in mind has fallen apart.

I apologise if it sounds like I am overreacting over nothing. But to me it is devastatingly sad..

You aren't overreacting; it isn't nothing; it is sad. I hope that someday you can look back on this and really feel the words you can say now about it's being the right thing and that you learned from it. But you have every right to be so sad you need to cry. It's okay. It really is.

"DerekJohnson;12983449" wrote:
Me and the love of my life have broken up, just before our wedding. No one did anything terribly wrong... We just changed and grew apart. Planning a wedding and, more importantly, a married life, may teach a couple love is not enough.

I understand that is not as serious and sad as what other people are going through. I may look like a very weak person now. The fact is, however, that I am crying a lot. It feels like the life I had in mind has fallen apart.

I apologise if it sounds like I am overreacting over nothing. But to me it is devastatingly sad..

I am so sorry to hear about this. It is a very sad time for you and you are not overreacting at all. It is good to cry. It lets out all that you are feeling, and can help healing inside. I send special thoughts to you and am thinking of you.

"luthienrising;12983551" wrote:


We need a hugs emoji. Do we have a hugs emoji?

Perhaps we could use the { } as a hug emoticon?

Sending hugs { } to every one .

TrashDeBlunc I am so sorry that you had a miscarriage, I hope that life gets better for you and that this never happens to you again. CrazyJenny I am so glad that you are going through a treatment that seems to be helping you, I hope that it continues to help you and that life will get better and better for you. DerekJohnson I am so sorry that your relationship ended and I am sorry that you are sad, I hope that things get better for you and what happened to you is important to you. Everyone has their sorrows in life, and no one can say that one person's troubles are less important. All of the sadnesses in our lives are important to us and we have the right to be sad and mourn.