Be Honest

@TheApexLegendNub

I'm not sure if I can really say anything that hasn't been said here by others, or even by myself, on other forum threads. But, for those who haven't ever seen my posts, I'll try and give a summary of my previous experiences and current feelings of the game.

I started in Season 5. And really loved it. Same with Season 6. I felt much like @Peri_Longbow_plz does. Never been into BR, but as someone who likes Overwatch, something about "Battle Royale gunplay with abilities" sounded appealing to me. And, then I was off to the races
Getting on pretty good with it all, minus some flaws (match making, connection issues, etc), but I was having fun.

Fast forward to S7, and it started to go down hill for me. That season greeted me with missing teammates in about a third of my matches (as in, I play Trios in Pubs and it's just me and maybe one other person, in my squad, on the selection screen). I was basically playing Forced No Fill, before it was a legit option, and I hated it. Pair it with the leavers and AFK players, and about half my matches, I was down at least one teammate. Ridiculous.

But, the joy of S7 didn't stop there. No, no. We got Olympus, which while not the worst map, I don't like how large and open it is (nothing like getting third and forth partied by snipers dozens to hundreds of meters away). They also took KC away for 90% of the season (the map I favor), as well as added the forced LTMs. Honestly, that care package mode was a nightmare. It was insane (and not in a good way) and it didn't help that the boxing ring addition was bugged for a bit and it allowed people to shoot you in the ring, definitely not fun. Oh, and how can I forget to grindy new BP system that essentially punishes you for not doing challenges/playing every day. Yeah... Super fun. Honestly, the only real big thing I liked from S7 was Horizon seemed like a cool enough Legend and that's about it.

Now, as for S8, sadly, it's much the same. We have the modified BP system (but I still hate it for the reasons mentioned above), I'm still having missing teammates a lot, and the LTMs are still forced (I do not like the ring flares). Granted, this season is better than S7 for me, as I really like the legend, we got KC back, and I like the new gun. I even like the new heat shields. But still not as good as S6 or S5 for me.

Also, I will say Locked and Loaded was very bittersweet for me. It was some of the best time I had playing Apex this entire season. It was wonderful to drop with a shield and heals and actually have a gun to defend myself. But, when it was over, it really made me realize how this game could be played. What we could have. And to just go back to how things were (looting through piles of unusable garbage, like opening a supply bin in the middle of the match and finding three white knockdown shields), it really sucks. While the mode wasn't perfect. I much preferred it to "Normal" Apex and definitely prefer it over the current LTM that's running. 

All in all, as for what I think of the game, at this very moment, I'm not super happy. I'm mainly playing because I bought the BP. But I'm tired of the sweaty lobbies (saw a ramp up of those this season, let me tell you), the game issues (audio, connection issues, bugs, etc), missing teammates, and dealing with this BP system for the second season in a row. Not to mention I'm less than thrilled about the mid season patch (they really nerfed the hell out of Caustic and some other things I'm not super pleased about).

The thing is, when I felt bad in S7 (frustrated, annoyed, etc), I told myself that maybe S8 would be better. And, I guess it is, but not as much as I was hoping. The issues I had with S7 are still present here and it has its own issues to boot. And, I just don't know if I have the will power to push through all this, anymore. S9 could be fantastic or could be more of the same (in terms of the problems I have with S7 & S8). And, if S9 stinks, do I just hope for better in S10? 11? 12? Or, do I just cut my loses here and find another game to invest in? I really don't know. And it's a shame, because I really like the world of Apex, it's the only BR I've ever liked. But, I just don't know if I can deal with all the BS. The bad is starting to outweigh the good for me. And I hate that.