Hey you, stop caring about Apex.
Yeah I said it, now hear me out. Or don't, your choice fam.
I used to be all about this game. Played it all day, always striving for masters/pred every season. Season 6 i hit top 100 in pred and also got my first 20 bomb(with wattson of all legends)
I was feeling great, but also, something felt missing.
I've always been a bit of a rager, I noticed I became very toxic on apex. Constantly stressed that my teammates weren't outputting the same damage or kills as me or close(That's my fault)
All I cared about was being good/winning(In a BR? Seriously? its like 75% luck. Luck on drops, luck on rotation, luck on getting endgame circle placement)
Season 7 dropped and my team and I sent it towards pred on the first night, hit D3 within the second night. And then the servers started crashing(Just like in every season beforehand)
Something was up, new glitch or server issues, and I started to lose points. The matchmaking penalties from server crashes started to add up. I stopped playing a bit and my team quickly left me behind(Apex players are equal parts fickle and toxic)
Tried to get back in, but like I said, something was missing. My motivation just died, I've done everything there is to do. 4k, 20 bomb, hit pred. And I asked myself, you know, who cares?
I took a break, played other games(Risk of rain 2 is quite fun, even solo)
Yet people kept inviting me to apex. People who were already pred while I left myself in low D3. I had built a reputation that I was a skilled player. So despite my then current ranking, people still wanted me on their team.
I came back but I limit myself on playtime(this game took up too much of my time, it stressed me out way too much. Leading to toxic behavior, even positive games meant little to me unless it was a win)
Now I'm D1 and I play sparingly, I perform remarkably well practically every game. I might hit pred, but like I've constantly reiterated to my teammates I wont fight to keep it. It means so little to me now. I don't care as much as I did before. And surprisingly I enjoy a good amount of my games now.
So all I'm really saying is, take a break. Stop trying to keep up with the constant limits and stress this game pushes on you. If you're not having fun, stop playing. This games not that important, not by a longshot.