Level 39 with a 0.7 kd playing against masters and preds.

I recently started getting into apex ( first time) and to be honest it’s a refresh even tho it’s a battle Royale, sick of Fortnite and MW and even r6, started liking it because my brother and cousin ( also new ) were playing for a few hours a day. When I first started I just thought everyone was good at this game cuz I am a few years late but as I became more of a common player and unlocking the ability to understand the full game. I’m seeing masters and predators every game when they fly out of this apex battle bus. lol . But don’t get me started on deathmatch or any of their game modes I see the 20 kill badge and the pred badges and stuff and I’m like wtf. I also CONSISTENTLY have a negative kd because I can’t compete. Mhm 0.7 (Stiizy) I’m level 40 and nothings getting better. Also have 39k damage and only 90 kills and 128 deaths, just need help or if I should just deal with or uninstall thanks.