Icon swaps makes me want to kms

Every time I try to do the one nation swaps challenge I just get absolutely destroyed by pina and maldini. there’s no hope for me to win any games at all let alone make a header with retegui  while I have no good first owned players how can I compete. I get home and I jsut want to play with r9 but I try to do the swaps for 1-2 hours and I literally get 0 wins it’s the most demoralizing thing ever and I just want to end it. It’s so stupid for me to try and do these dumb challenges when I’m already not the best in the game against people who have stacked untradeable teams who clearly are better than me and want to get wins as well. I can only get pity wins and that happens like 1 out of 10 games. I just hate playing and I hate it so so much but I just to play with r9 so I keep getting on and on and every time I do It just ruins my day. This game is literally he’ll when I have a 83 rated Mancini and I go up against Henry Pina mbappe and etc… what am I supposed to do. It’s taken me days just to get done with the Spain nation and I can’t even believe I have to do 3 more nations. I might just be bad but why couldn’t ea just have made Icon swaps a bit easier for someone more casual. It’s just make me so depressed because I just keep losing and losing like there’s no way for me to win with my team. Why does it have to be first owned players like I don’t even get anyone good from packs how can I compete with everyone else. I just hate playing I hate it I hate it I hate it I hate it but I want r9 so I just continue to play and play just for the occasional pity win. People are still going to pay millions for points why can’t they just make swaps easier. I want to give up but I want r9 so I jsut keep going. I’m down bad but it’s okay I know eventually I’ll get there but it’s just so brain numbing and makes me want to jump off a cliff. Please ea just make swaps less games and make the challenge easier for the next time I want to feel like I can actually enjoy playing this game. At the moment right now this is the saddest most defeated I’ve ever felt playing this game and I feel it can get even worst. The matchmaking puts me up against demons who literally have no remorse for me at all it doesn’t help when we all need 6 wins and 5 through balls. When the challenge is less than the wins then everyone is just trying to win why now make it 4 wins 6 through balls. Then we would actually get people letting others win because all they need is a through ball and not a win. I Think I’m worst than average but i think it could still have been made easier. I’m going to reluctantly contact to play this game and by the next 2 weeks I know I’ll have r9 but I’m going to have to go to the doctors for some antidepressants because this crap is just so sad for me just so sad and I hate it.