Impossible to have fun in this game

There’s no dam loot on this map. Constantly trying to find a weapon, ammo or heals. Also I’m just being stomped by masters with 20,000 kills EVERY GAME. It’s such a disgusting system that you’ve decided I’m cannon fodder for sweats & im never allowed to just play in a chill lobby. It’s just constant sweat after sweat after sweat. 
So ok whatever that’s fine, in return I stop spending money. Why spend money when I don’t have any fun 😂 joke of a system.