Still seems kinda pointless this season

As a casual player, this season apex just seems kinda pointless to play. Almost every game I am being so out matched it's ridiculous.

Shields gone before i can even blink and then downed before I can react.

Being shot with  amazing accuracy from a long distance..repeatedly

Emptying a clip magazine into an opponent only to have them turn round and kill me with just a few shots.

Popped my head from behind cover a few games ago and instanlty 3 bullet trails passed through the space i just been in - from the distances and spacing, very unlikely these were even all on the same team.

Lost count of the number of times I have been in cover and opponents just knew exactly where i was...even the times there was really no reason to come near me.

Last few seasons I have worked up to being able to maintain an above 1.0 K/D ratio. Not amazing I know, but good enough for me to enjoy the game, this season I struggle to even get a kill most matches. The few times I have been able to get kills/wins are when I just dip below 1K/D and then suddenly get a game with a few kills which then puts me above 1 again and back into impossible games. Possibly as Apex seems to be vastly exaggerating my K/D score - currently my 85 kills and 80 deaths show as a 1.6 KDR - my highest ever but not exactly correct! Also shows how little I have played this season. Could this incorrectly calculated KDR be putting me in matches with people who really have that score?

I know there are a lot of really good players out there, most of them a lot younger and quicker than me, but I really should not be being matched against people this far ahead of my skill and it also just feels like a lot of opponents are, well..not playing fair?

Dunno why I'm posting this really, just disappointed with a game that I used to really enjoy playing. Not sure most matches even qualify as a game as I'm not realistically 'playing', just providing fodder for others.

ah well......